The Other Side

 I decided to offer to Eshu and Hecate today. I baked a loaf for her: an egg, cinnmon sugar, butter, and flour. It wasn't that tasty, but it smelled good. I walked to the store with my headphones on--departing just as Stoned Nirvana by Dopesmoker was ending--with the cake in a plastic container.  I had a playlist, Swift Rock songs , complete with artists from Jimmy Hendrix to Frank Ocean to Gojira. First, though, I had to walk through the shadows. I'd walked the roads before at night yet never the dirt roads. This was different. The air was alive somehow.  More...aware.  I moved steadily, not wanting to show fear, I guess I hadn't actually thought I'd be walking at night. I sorta felt the urge, baked the cake, charged my phone and headphones, grabbed my coat and I was out. I had on a bright sleeveless tank top and my obsidian draon necklace for protection. I uttered Psalm 23 as I moved through the familiar yet eerie environment.  The dark still scared me though....

5:51 PM Day of Mars - Hour of Venus August 11, 2026 Listening to Dragon Time by Saint Vitus. The stat reads "10K views 11y ago".  1:11. I'm thinking about Mars. The Priestess. She's broken up with the guy. I had a feeling about him, but I wasn't sure. I thought she was headed down a different path. I texted her, but we haven't had a conversation yet. I keep thinking to call people, but I'm also just chilling.  I may go to work tomorrow. Most likely will. I'll have to give blood in the morning though. I bought some earbuds so I should be good. Now I can listen to music at work! I've been thinking about working with the dragons again lately. Last time I fell asleep right in the middle of the floor. 

(From left to right) Duamutef, Qebsenef, Hapi, and Mesti -  The Four Sons of Heru   Did a ritual with JaKarr, with Oya, where we both went to the cemetery. I left about 4-5 oranges and a modest vine of grapes. We both asked that we be released from our porn addiction. We performed it during the hour of Mercury.  When I got to the cemetery there was a storm cloud approaching. I talked to JaKarr before I made my offering and made my request. I listened to Alice Coltrane's Turiya & Ramakrishna. Later, we performed the initial Opening of the Cardinal Quarters. I slept well. The Astral Flight spell didn't work last night. It worked on the 4th of August this month, but not last night. I'll have to stop smoking if I want to see real results. 

 I took a real break. For 10:10 this time. I thought the screen read Blessed Belief. I had another tab open that read "Episode 50 - BlackSun". My right forearm was sore. I worked at the pillow factory and that meant working with my hands.  Folding. Over and Over Again  by Uncle Acid & the Deadbeats plays in my mind. The screen had actually read Frank Zappa - Blessed Relief. I felt my arms relax; the muscle ease. I hadn't done a pushup in months. lol Fuck the Army, bru! Fuck that shit. AWOLNATION.  At 21:55, I realized I placed the white candles down, almost exactly in the cardinal directions!!! I had been listening to Black Sabbath - MASTER OF REALITY!!!!  I had just swept the carpet and was performing the Opening of the Quarters ceremony.  9:58 PM After Forever by Black Sabbath is playing. I ended the ritual with After Forever playing again, but it was the studio outtakes.- instrumental. I BUMPED THAT JUNK UP TO 100!!!! I saw 22:21 m left on the Planet...