Skip to main content

I NEED HELP!

 I'm so fucking tired of being here bro. I' m tired of being in this cycle. Nothing is making me feel better! fuck I want to hit something. I masturbated today. I just can't do this bruh. 

I came back home. I found my card. The AI was right. The Christian one this time. It said I'd find my card. The other one was right before the "AURA Tarot" one. I posted a skit tonight too. I tried to use SoraAi, but I couldn't do it on my phone. I tried Momma's tablet and phone but no luck for either. I made lunch for tomorrow. Don't really want to go. 

Noel is here. I'm learning a little more of the songs on piano. Still on "Lean On Me" by Bill Withers. I've had trouble meditationg the past few days. I can't seem to get too deep. I'll stay off it for a couple of days (especially since Noel is here) and try again soon. 

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Grand Earth Trine Pt. 1

Virgo Season From August 22 to September 22, the Sun will occupy the 30 ° of space of the Virgo constellation. During this season, Mercury (Virgo's ruling planet) and the Moon will also transit, i.e. move through, the sign. There are other planetary orbits occurring. I won't cover them all here, but I will describe something very useful. Before I do it is important to inner-stand that astrology is about the Self.  We conduct this self-exploration via over-standing the signs, houses, and planets. In layman's terms, these three categories (signs, houses, and planets) really describe how energy interacts with itself and in what form it manifests into. In fact, you could even go so far as to say, that the planets even relate to the chakra system.  That's for another article, but this idea connects our inner world with our outer world.  For example, my sun sign is a Virgo. This means my "light", my conscious actions, the things I...
Post a Comment
Read more

Grand Earth Trine, Pt. 2

Happy Virgo Season! Have you been productive? I know I have and if you aren't it's probably because you're not aware of what's going on. If that's true, check back to my most recent article: Grand Earth Trine Pt. 1 Just a quick recap of what's going on in the stars. * *Credits to Planet Watcher: http://planetwatcher.com/ Direct and Retrograde Now that you know what aspects are; I can delve into two very import aspects in astrology. The retrograde and direct. Of these two the retrograde gets the worst rap. On and on I've heard astrologers damn and condemn a retrograde.  I don't really understand all the fuss. All a retrograde is—meaning all it amounts to—is the motion of a planet based off perception. Whose perception you may ask? Well, the people of Earth, of course.  For us a planet in retrograde is a planet appearing to move backwards. It's not really doing this nor is it reversing in anyway physically.  Joanna...
Post a Comment
Read more

Chrysanthemum: The Flower of Eternity

Chrysanthemums [pronounced kris-saen-thuh-mem] are a flowering plant of the daisy family Asteraceae or Compositae. It's name "chrys—" and "anthemum" means "golden" and "flower", respectively. In fact, Asteraceae is the scientific name for sunflowers. Through cultivation there are many colors now and the plant has found many uses. These range from medicinal or culinary or environmental. Appropriately, the Chrysanthemum is tied to the Sun and longevity and, therefore the 3rd chakra—the Manipura. The flower generates emotions of real change and progress in the attentive student. It imparts wisdom on how to be one's self and shine brightly in the world. However, the progressive energies of the Solar Plexus, where the Manipura is located, is stymied by the presence of Saturn. This was a surprise to me as it gave the tea a stern figure. There was an essence of knowing while drinking, as if I was downloading practicality in liq...
Post a Comment
Read more